Waterproof Mascara

As the Urban Dictionary says:

Meltdown: Describes what happens when a person freaks out, cracks, loses control of themselves. Life - reality at large- becomes overwhelming. They just can't deal with it all. The person may act out, withdraw, become emotional, run, etc...

Well this past week was full of meltdowns and every time I found myself tearing up I realized that I deserved this meltdown because I hadn't had one in awhile. haha women. Am I right?

Sitting down with a friend and telling him how frustrated I was to feel like I was doing so well and then all of a sudden feeling back at square one only caused the last meltdown of the week. 

Nothing beats the sight of a hysterical emotional girl with a few.. okay.. a lot of mascara filled tears running down her face (I think it's time I invest in waterproof mascara). Okay okay every sight probably beats that, but nothing beats the peaceful feeling you get after you've just let everything out. 

Hooray for being emotional!!

Yesterday I was able to go to a few of my friends homecomings and throughout the day I would see random people from high school and they would even get up out of their chairs to hug me. Seriously, such kind and beautiful (handsome too) friends I have. All day long I kept feeling so much love from these people that I honestly didn't even hang out with much in high school.

Last night as I laid in bed after my long successful Sunday, I couldn't help but think about my day and feel so thankful for these people who have befriended me even when I wasn't always a friend to them. I felt so loved from them and they didn't even know that I was needing it. I didn't even know how desperately I was needing to feel their love.

The Lord has always been in the details and it's times like this where I'm grateful to have the knowledge of his constant care. I've felt like I've been in the refiners fire for quite some time and although I can't quite see his vision of who he wants me to be, I know that by these trying times I am being prepared for something even greater than I can imagine. The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints brings me so much happiness and I know it can change a persons life because it has changed mine.

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Love,

Aubrey Marie