Thursday, November 20, 2014

How many 'thumbs up' are you getting?

So here I am, about to rant to you again. But I think this rant will be good. So listen up!! ...Well I guess "read" up? sure. haha

Somethings been on my mind for the past few hours.

Pride.

Oh how prideful our generation has become.

"BUT FIRST. Let me take a Selfie."

Of course I've taken selfies and of course I've posted them to social media. I too am guilty of being prideful, but a few weeks ago I realized that none of it mattered. It doesn't matter how many double taps I get on my Instagram picture, how many thumbs up I get on Facebook, or how many golden stars I get on Twitter. Too often we are searching for man's approval, but how often are we searching for His approval?

Until a few weeks ago, all I wanted was praise from friends, family, and random strangers I didn't even know. But it wasn't until I started to trust in God and align my will with his that I realized that all this worldly stuff didn't matter. It doesn't matter what my neighbor thinks of me, it doesn't matter what the cute boy downstairs thinks... well I mean okay maybe a little. But not in the way of "Do I look good?" "Is that a ZIT??" "Is my hair on point?" but it matters of my service rendered to them, it matters of the example I'm setting and if I'm sharing with others Christ's light that is within me.

"The Doctrine and Covenants tells us that the Book of Mormon is the "record of a fallen people." (D&C 20:9) Why did they fall? This is one of the major messages of the Book of Mormon. Mormon gives the answer in the closing chapters of the book in these words: "Behold, the pride of this nation, or the people of the Nephites, hath proven their destruction." (Moro. 8:27) ... "Beware of pride, lest ye become as the Nephites of old." (D&C38:39)" - Ezra Taft Benson "Beware of Pride"

I highly suggest you read President Benson's talk ^^ It's an eye opener for sure.

A few of my favorite things he says are:

"The proud wish that God would agree with them. They aren't interested in changing their opinions to agree with God's."

guilty.

"What will men think of me? weighs heavier than What will God think of me?"

guilty..

"Would we not do well to have the pleasing of God as our motive rather than to try to elevate ourselves above our brother and outdo another?"

guilty...

"Selfishness is one of the more common faces of pride. "How everything affects me" is the center of all that matters--self-conceit, self-pity, worldly self-fulfillment, self-gratification, and self-seeking."

Once again.... 

How simple and how true! Many times I have thought my way was better than His, that what my boyfriend thought of me was more important than what God thought of me. I was the epitome of prideful. It wasn't until I truly had a broken heart and a contrite spirit that I was ready to humble myself and align my will with His. Honestly one of the hardest times in my life but 100% worth it.

Too many times I depended upon the world to tell me whether or not I had value and far too often my self-esteem was lowered because I wasn't like so and so or I didn't look like Julianne Hough... sadly I just admitted that to you all. I say 'you all' like I actually have readers other than the fam bam. (I can always count on you guys!)

Yes, I know that pride is something that catches us all at some point or another but President Benson gives us the antidote for pride and that is humility--meekness, submissiveness.

Mosiah 3:19
For the natural man is an enemy to God, and has been from the fall of Adam, and will be, forever and ever, unless he yields to the enticings of the Holy Spirit, and putteth off the natural man and becometh as a child, submissive, meek, humble, patient, full of love, willing to submit to all things which the Lord seeth fit to inflict upon him, even as a child doth submit to his father.

Of course we will have hard days but trust that you are never alone--He is there beside you. It's when we push through the hard times that God pours out his blessings for us. (Don't get me wrong.. He's always ready to bless us and is blessing us as we speak.)

Yes, I will probably still post selfies, but they are no longer to see how much approval I get but because I'm confident and feel beautiful in my own skin. As should all of you.

Let us rid of our pride and become as children.

Sincerely,
Lobster



Sunday, November 9, 2014

God is Good

Today I am grateful for the power of prayer. I'm grateful for a Savior who loves and listens to us 24/7. The past few weeks have been terribly rough and as I sat down with my bishopric to give me a priesthood blessing I talked to them about all my fears, worries, hurt, and hopes. They told me how extremely blessed I am and how I can use the Atonement to help aid me to feel joy and peace through this trial. As I sat back being bitter and sobbing for which felt like days my heart was softened and I realized that the only person that could truly help me through this was my Heavenly Father.

It was then when I started to pray like crazy. "Father please take this from me" "Please comfort me" ... as my prayers continued in asking for help they have slowly turned to thank you's and asking for understanding. Although I still ask for help MANY times in my prayers I still see that this trial is helping me become the person that my Savior wants me to be and for that I am so grateful. I'm changing in the ways that I have always wanted to and I know that I am being prepared for something great. Although this time has been incredibly hard for me, prayer has been their to comfort me in the darkest of times.

When I feel anger, sadness, confusion, frustration etc. I immediately turn to Heavenly Father and ask for understanding. I reiterate that I know he has a plan for me and that this is a major part of his plan. I'm working on trusting him 100% and that is such a huge step for me. I'm constantly putting faith in him and through it all I am developing a relationship with my Savior and that is one gift that I will never trade for anything.

I have become extremely humble and know that our Savior is ready to pour blessings upon us. I can't begin to tell you how much peace I have felt, how much past luggage I have left behind and how confident I am that my future will be blessed. (because lets be real I'm a worry wart and the future is something that's always stressed me out).

Praying has comforted me throughout my days and even during the middle of the night. Because our Heavenly Father is there 24/7 I know that at anytime during the day I can turn to him and he will listen. It may have taken me 19 years to strongly believe that he is listening but through this time I know that he is because of the amount of peace and love I have felt.

I Need Thee Every Hour will always be one of my favorite hymns. Honestly He is our saving grace and we all need his constant care.

  1. 1. I need thee ev'ry hour,
    Most gracious Lord.
    No tender voice like thine
    Can peace afford.
  2. (Chorus)
    I need thee, oh, I need thee;
    Ev'ry hour I need thee!
    Oh, bless me now, my Savior;
    I come to thee!
  3. 2. I need thee ev'ry hour;
    Stay thou nearby.
    Temptations lose their pow'r
    When thou art nigh.
3. I need thee ev'ry hour,
In joy or pain.
Come quickly and abide,
Or life is vain.

4. I need thee ev'ry hour,
Most holy One.
Oh, make me thine indeed,
Thou blessed Son!

My testimony of prayer has grown immensely. I know I struggled because I felt like I never got answers but He is listening and knows what's best for us. He may hold back from answering us because it's not the right time but if we can continue to trust in him he will be there and help us always. 

Trust in the Lord's timing because he knows the way. It's a constant lesson I'm continuing to master and although I feel so far from conquering it completely I know that I will get there with baby steps.

God is good. So good.

Love
Aubrey


Sunday, November 2, 2014

Abide With Me



Oh my dearest savior.
Abide with me.
Take my hand and stay.
A daughter of God,
cherished and loved.
Please show me your way.

Stay thou nearby.
oh dearest Lord.
and hear my faintest cries.

Oh Lord,
please sit awhile and abide with me
because I need thee
every hour

I strive to be my best me
the person you want me to be.
My dearest Heavenly Father,
your plan is the greatest
and trusting is my weakness.

Help me to have strength,
Help me to be believing,
Help me to be courageous
and do as ye would have me do. 

Savior, stay thou nearby.
Please sit awhile
and help me feel thy love.
my light is dim
these eyes are tired
this heart is hurt.

Take my hand oh Lord
I'm ready to follow.
To follow the path
that ye hath chosen for me,
You're beloved daughter Aubrey Marie.