scars

We humans have the ability to think. Obviously. But what some people don't understand is that some of us, and when I say us I mean ME, think a lot. aka over think. Things that people did to me years ago still haunt me. They sneak up on me at the most random times and I won't say that it's easy to brush off.

I once had someone that I cared very deeply for tell me that I was the most negative person they had ever met and I won't lie, because that was said I think and think and think "Am I really as horrible and negative as they say I am?" It's damaging. My self-esteem was shoved so far down in the dirt that I questioned almost every decision leading me to that point. Although this was said many months ago, it still hurts me every time I think about it. It makes me cringe that someone could say something like that to anyone. I was offended and it took me months to move on...to be honest, even when it creeps up on me today it still makes me cringe and brings tears to my eyes.

I know that's a lot of honesty and it's like picking at a scab and showing you all the wound that is behind it, gross, but this isn't just a scab. This is a scar. I have scars from my surgery that are small but are still flaws on my stomach, but this is one of those ugly ones that you're too afraid to show people because of what they'll think and say. But I'm revealing this scar of mine not for sympathy votes but to make you think more about kindness and the words you choose to say to others. In this world that is slowly dwindling into something scary, to say the least, I wish we could all be a little kinder. Myself included.

I sit back and know that I'm not a mean person, I generally get along with most people and genuinely care for them, but I know that I get offended, I get hurt, or sometimes I'm just not in the mood and that causes me, and probably most people, to get angry and frustrated with others. That then leads us to say some not-so-nice things to others like "You are the most negative person I have ever met."

How much does it mean to you when someone compliments your outfit that day, when someone offers you a ride to your car cause you're parked farther than usual, or just a plain old text to a friend saying that you care? I can't tell you how much I appreciate the small and SIMPLE things like this and I think that goes for anyone and everyone. In this generation we like to be noticed and appreciated and I don't think that's a bad thing. I like the feeling of being wanted and loved. Who doesn't?

I know I know, I now sound like my mom who has told me these wise words all throughout growing up. "Just be nice Aubrey." when I picked fights with my sister. "Just be nice Aubrey." when I came home and complained about how my friends weren't very kind that day.

So it's time I check and ask myself "Are you being kind to those around you? Are you being nice?" and I encourage you to ask yourself the same thing because just a little more kindness throughout your day won't hurt. If anything it will make you smile and brighten your day just a little bit more. After all, kindness is a service and when "Ye are in the service of your fellow beings ye are only in the service of your God." Mosiah 2:17

Okay, Cheesy yet?

Love,

Aubrey