There's so many things that I see daily that I want to do or I want to be more like this or I want that car or I want... I want... I want...! blah. I'm so over it. even though later today I'll see something and still want it.. I guess it's how society is. I mean we don't have to be this way but it's hard to not compare yourself to other people or to want the latest fashion/toys. It's hard to shake that "I want" monster off.
It's hard to get away from social media and stalking everyone on everything. I see girls that I don't even know on Facebook and just think "Wow. They are beautiful...and perfect...and they are just winning at life. I want to be them." In reality, they aren't. They have problems just like I do. They have crappy days. We just don't see it through the pretty pictures that are posted on Instagram/Facebook/Twitter/Any other social media website that helps you feel bad about yourself.
But I think it's time that we stop comparing ourselves to everyone else. ... I mean maybe most of you don't feel this way but ya know. I'm just making a statement for those that do. We are all individuals that were created in the image of God. Even though I don't have the latest trends and I don't do my make up perfectly everyday... or don't wear make up at all... I know that he has blessed me with traits and talents that make up for what I view in myself as flaws.
I've been focusing my thoughts on knowing that God has a plan for me that is better than any plan I could make for myself.
“Our Father in Heaven is an eternal being whose experience, wisdom, and intelligence are infinitely greater than ours...He not only knows what is best for you; He also anxiously wants you to choose what is best for you.”
-Dieter F. Uchtforf, Women's General Conference
That means that all those wants of mine and all these little plans and expectations I have, often times turn into hurtful thoughts that cause me frustration, sadness, and even anger. It's frustrating when I don't accomplish the things that I'm trying so hard to do but it's okay because in the big scheme of things it will all workout because we have a Heavenly Father who cares about each and every one of us. He so desperately wants what's best for us and know's our divine potential.
Throughout the days when I see myself getting frustrated because I'm not conquering patience or having more faith or being more courageous I have to sit back and remind myself that it takes time. These things take time Aubrey. But then I realize that I'm not a patient person and so when "these things take time" I get even more frustrated because it feels like it's going to be forever.
Quite an annoying cycle really.
I've been in a phase of not really knowing what life is and what I truly want out of life, and I'm annoyed. Really annoyed. So I've decided to focus on the things that make me happy and see the positive things in life. See that everyone has good days and bad days. The occasional bad hair day is something that will happen. The day that your deodorant runs out and you're hoping all day that no one smells you will happen... guilty. You will get in arguments with people you care about. Crap happens guys. I'm sure I don't need to tell you that but I'm going to remind you that it does.
I'm happy for the things that I have been blessed with. My amazing family and friends. In these hard times I'm learning to focus time and energy on those that I care about because I know that when I'm not focusing on myself, my worries and frustrations fade away. Here's to pictures that take me back to happy times in my life and make me smile.
and you know what? I'm not sorry for the picture overload.
Love
Aubrey Marie
