God is Good

Today I am grateful for the power of prayer. I'm grateful for a Savior who loves and listens to us 24/7. The past few weeks have been terribly rough and as I sat down with my bishopric to give me a priesthood blessing I talked to them about all my fears, worries, hurt, and hopes. They told me how extremely blessed I am and how I can use the Atonement to help aid me to feel joy and peace through this trial. As I sat back being bitter and sobbing for which felt like days my heart was softened and I realized that the only person that could truly help me through this was my Heavenly Father.

It was then when I started to pray like crazy. "Father please take this from me" "Please comfort me" ... as my prayers continued in asking for help they have slowly turned to thank you's and asking for understanding. Although I still ask for help MANY times in my prayers I still see that this trial is helping me become the person that my Savior wants me to be and for that I am so grateful. I'm changing in the ways that I have always wanted to and I know that I am being prepared for something great. Although this time has been incredibly hard for me, prayer has been their to comfort me in the darkest of times.

When I feel anger, sadness, confusion, frustration etc. I immediately turn to Heavenly Father and ask for understanding. I reiterate that I know he has a plan for me and that this is a major part of his plan. I'm working on trusting him 100% and that is such a huge step for me. I'm constantly putting faith in him and through it all I am developing a relationship with my Savior and that is one gift that I will never trade for anything.

I have become extremely humble and know that our Savior is ready to pour blessings upon us. I can't begin to tell you how much peace I have felt, how much past luggage I have left behind and how confident I am that my future will be blessed. (because lets be real I'm a worry wart and the future is something that's always stressed me out).

Praying has comforted me throughout my days and even during the middle of the night. Because our Heavenly Father is there 24/7 I know that at anytime during the day I can turn to him and he will listen. It may have taken me 19 years to strongly believe that he is listening but through this time I know that he is because of the amount of peace and love I have felt.

I Need Thee Every Hour will always be one of my favorite hymns. Honestly He is our saving grace and we all need his constant care.

1. 1. I need thee ev'ry hour,
   Most gracious Lord.
   No tender voice like thine
   Can peace afford.
2. (Chorus)
   I need thee, oh, I need thee;
   Ev'ry hour I need thee!
   Oh, bless me now, my Savior;
   I come to thee!
3. 2. I need thee ev'ry hour;
   Stay thou nearby.
   Temptations lose their pow'r
   When thou art nigh.

3. I need thee ev'ry hour,

In joy or pain.

Come quickly and abide,

Or life is vain.

4. I need thee ev'ry hour,

Most holy One.

Oh, make me thine indeed,

Thou blessed Son!

My testimony of prayer has grown immensely. I know I struggled because I felt like I never got answers but He is listening and knows what's best for us. He may hold back from answering us because it's not the right time but if we can continue to trust in him he will be there and help us always. 

Trust in the Lord's timing because he knows the way. It's a constant lesson I'm continuing to master and although I feel so far from conquering it completely I know that I will get there with baby steps.

God is good. So good.

Love

Aubrey