Happy

Blogging. Setting this up was ten times harder than I ever expected but I think I got it. I think..

The thought of getting a blog was really intimidating. I kept telling myself that I wasn't word savvy or creative enough to catch people's eye, but I've been intrigued with starting a blog. I think it is kinda cool writing your life down and being able to share your thoughts and feelings in such a way, although, I know my blog is just going to be jumbled up thoughts most of the time. I'm no good with diaries and I figured being in college, constantly doing online homework, it would be easier to log on and write rather than hand write in a diary. haha I find it funny that I hate writing. Like literally. I loathe it. But why I think that I'll keep up with this, I don't know. wish me luck.

anyways...

It's been a crazy freshman year. I couldn't be happier with my choice to come to Utah Valley University. The Lord definitely directed me here and I'm so grateful he did. I've made incredible friends and seriously am having the time of my life (besides the whole school/homework part). Moving out was a huge step for me. Even my mom told me that out of all my siblings, she thought I needed it most. haha thanks mom? No, I don't cook. No, I'm not super independent. Yes, I'm lazier than lazy. I see where she's coming from. Honestly, It's been a huge blessing and I thank my Heavenly Father for guiding me to such an amazing place that I get to call home. I have five wonderful roommates that I love oh so much. Even though sometimes my ears bleed from the operatic singing, I get headaches from the dramatic stories, and literally something falls out of our freezer every time we open it, I am so content with it all and love everyday I'm here. 

In high school I always woke up on the wrong side of the bed. Not a joke. I even had someone who loved me enough to send me sweet texts to wake up to but still there was no happiness there. I really struggled and I could never put my finger on as to why I felt this way. I loved my boyfriend and he really was such an amazing light in my life. He's taught me so much about myself and I will always be grateful to him. I now know that I was never happy with myself. I didn't love myself the way I should and it made it hard to accept the love that people so freely offered me, especially Presten's huge heart full of love for me. Although I struggled, it led me to where I am today. I love life.. most days. haha I'm so thankful for those crazy, difficult, lonely high school years. 

Be happy. Such a simple concept, yet so difficult to achieve.

We can do it.

With Love,

Lobster